Update

Ive been working diligently the last couple of weeks. My classes have been getting harder. This post serves a few purposes- namely, to give you a sense of how my english class has contributed to my changing self-narrative, perceptions and assertions.
In the beginning of the year, I wrote an informal introductury essay which made me reflect upon my own evoloving view of the self over the expance of my life. How I never realized my potential until I turned 16.
Now when I think over the course of even the last few months, my trials have turned my perceptions into something very different. I have generated a new paradigm, a schema of reality which has shifted very far from what it was only a few short months ago. Every detail of our lives changes who we are. Every whim and fleeting thought changes our cognitive physiology. And thus, I will begin by recounting a little about what we are doing in english class right now.
We were assigned an essay project where we assume the role of writer for the discourse community of our majors, mine being that of mechanical engineering. I initially thought this would be a cakewalk, but to my surprise I found hours of countless hours spent in the library pondering and reflecting topics to write about. My personal writers voice is largely literary, and I have little experience in scientific writing outside of lab-repots for chemistry and material science. Writing on thermodynamics, motion, and aerodynamics... even manufacturing processes is a monumental task and very draining. This has given me knew appreciation for the works of the millions of engineers before me, the volumes of books in the library which individuals have dwelled upon to produce knowledge out of their grappling and inquisitive minds. I was non-the-less intrigued, and very dreadful for the task and future which I know awaits me in this field. If I could only force my neurons to swallow a fraction of the lore in these books I would be very pleased. Alas, we are limited as nature had not- or had intended.
The paper which I must complete for this assigment will span 8-10 pages and I must argue some controversy in my field. This ofcourse is difficult as I must re-affirm. I have pondered many hours and am looking to some escape before I loose my sanity, if it has not already fled.
Thus ends my update, and there are more to come in the near future.

wow!

I'm pretty much really tired write now... Ive stayed up all night to complete an english paper... and I think the paper sucks, but hey, Im so tired right now, that it seriously does not matter. I bet this writing does not make much sense either cause I am so out of it and hungry! GOD i went out with bethany last night and she treated me but I didnt order enough... and then I went hugry. I feel dumbness prevading everything. It is permeating!@$#!@$@!#$@#$!@#$ 1234 bLAHALAHLAHLAHLAHLA

HELLLLLLO!

The 7000 Chakras

Whilst I was meditating today-
I know, can you imagine the glory-
Well, lets back up for a minute...
I saw this one video of youtube which really inspired me to cultivate my energy through Chakra meditation- or as one sage calls it QiGong. Qi is the life force which exists everywhere.

I started my research upon completion of that riveting book highlighted a few posts ago- the one which rocked my view of reality.

So there is a Healer in China perhaps? who has a remarkable ability to control his chi- or life energy, and mixing different yin and yang energies pooled in his naval chakra (energy field in his stomach), he is able to create a sort of electricity which he projects into his hands and can be used to shock his patients and realign their energy fields performing miraculous cures and astounding physical feats including pyro-kinetics.

John Chang is his name, and if you don't believe me, why- here is the video which reveals everything@, hope you enjoy this as much as I did.

Bitter Sweet

Today I woke up, and walked to the kitchen. I opened up the fridge then closed it, but then I opened it again. There was something in the air which I could not put my finger on. This intangible thing, well I did not know what to call it, nor do I know now. Only that it comprised the essence of life. An energy field of conscious awareness that binds matter into the holographic encasement of a so called ether.

Say you want to know how to move objects with your mind. That's telekinesis Kyle. Well as far as I know, that is impossible, so quite wasting your time and start working with your talents to do something productive with your life.
I am being bitter aren't I.
If you have the talent, you would know instantly, so quite trying to be like arnold when your genetics are constricting.

I want you to ask yourself this, today... What have I done to help others, but most importantly, what have I done to help myself.

If you want answers, look no further then yourself.... BECAUSE> the kingdom of heaven is within you.

HAVE A NICE DAY
DAN and ...well I miss Rico

Its a paraboloide

Tomorrow I have to complete a very important calculus exam. Its going to be so much fun. I am really looking forward to taking it.,.,..................... ... .





:)
I hope i don't blow the whale phallus. Sory I dont have much to reflect on tonight. Perhaps I should go for a walk and think about the mind.
Not entirely sure if this is what is expected of me. I may have to review this material a little bit longer.
Oh well.
Stream of consiousness is fun. Yay.
Alright, now for something completely different.

It was a long and lonesome night. Sharleene lay upon the sofa in a gleaming trance like state. Her long flowing locks of hair tucked neatly in a bow upon her golden head, the beuty of the radiant maiden.........

Fuck this, I am not a prositute.

BORRRRRRRRRRRRRRED.

PROSCRASTIN. ATE HER.
I knew it all along, its just a secret code. BAHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
BAMF!
goodnight.




I;m out.

Holograph and the implicate

So I've been reading a lot the last few days, in particular this one book entitled the Holographic universe. I know, heavy stuff..... Basically, and I mean it, basically, it's an alternative theory to/incorporating quantum mechanics- dealing in principle with the nature of reality.

The theory explains the interconnectedness of all things, and provides a creadible explination of paranomrmal occurences. Everything we see and experience is simply a holograph of sorts, the interaction of frequencies and patterns which are converted -just like a computer converts binary code/or numbers- into meaning.

The theory extends into everything from quantum mechanics into the nonlocation of memories stored in the animal brain.

The elusive unified field theory which Einstein once sought is rationalized and justified in this cutting edge scientific/philosophical adventure. I found the book extremely insightful at the start but towards the end falls short of my high expectaions. Otherwise I would have been intrigued, but the descriptions of miracles and the author's psychic/telekinetic abilites made me less then reasured. Personally I have not witnessed any "miracles", and it must be stated that my own reality is limited to things which I have observed or witnessed.

There were many parts however which resonated with me 01100101 *computer code- including the incorporation of Jung's collective unconscious and the undeniable fact of synchronicity- the occurrence of two events which are random but too close to be described by chance.

Overall, there were moments when my whole understanding of the universe felt like it had become unhinged and I was deeply moved by the contentions of the proponents of Holographic implicate and explicit orders of reality. BAH- just read the book.

It is well worth a read if you want a ride away from your absolute certainties and belief systems. It's good sometimes to keep these things in check.